我们现在是战友了。。
理想很丰满，现实很骨感，全世界的孩子们都知道。

在日志上写完我的狗屎生活，然后去你的日志看你的狗屎生活，虽然深感不幸，依然觉得温暖。
然后我突然想到，一直以来，总是在抱怨现实很操蛋，却没有真正的去跟丫fight过。

或许。。。现实并不象想像的那么瘦。。。或许。。。使使劲儿，我们就成了。

加油！fighting！

然后今天又继续跌。

今天，我坐在教室，听着professor讲最初来到美国的墨西哥移民，手里忙着记笔记，脑子却在想别的。

这边申请学校除了AAU对TOEFL成绩没有最低限制外，其他的都要100＋，张娟阿姨说那是因为我是文科生，理科估计80就行了。

我现在学的叫women of color in the USA，跟以前的专业完全不挨，属于GE的课程，General Education，类似国内小学的思想品德初中高中的政治历史什么的。其实还挺有意思的，好几次我想到了崔卫平，她的大学人文就很好玩，看懂听懂讲的出想法来的日子有多自在。

很烦, 学英语不象你们说的那么简单，抵制心理很严重。长到23，我要从新认识世界了。。。

Backlighting- When the lights for a shot derive from the rear of the set, thus throwing the foreground figures into semidarkness or silhouette.
 

Close up/Close Shot- A detailed view of a person or object. A close-up of an actor usually only his or her head. As opposed to a long shot.


Crane Shot- A shot taken from a special device called a crane, which resembles a huge mechanical arm. The crane carries the camera and the cinematographer and can move in virtually any direction.


Deep Focus- A technique of photography that permits all distance planes to remain clearly in focus, from close-up ranges to infinity.


Diegetic Sound/Actual Sound- Sound whose source is visible on the screen or whose source is implied to be present by the action of the film:
- music represented as coming from instruments in the story space ( = source music)
Diegetic sound is any sound presented as orginated from a source within the film's world. The sound may be either on screen or off screen depending on whatever is within the frame or outside the frame. As opposed to Non-diegetic sound.


Dissolve- The slow fading out of one shot and the gradual fading in of its successor, with a superimposition of images, usually at the mid-point.


Dolly Shot/ Tracking Shot/ Trucking Shot- A shot taken from a moving vehicle. Originally, tracks were laid on the set to permit a smoother movement of the camera.



Film Noir- A French term- literally, black cinema- referring to a kind of urban American genre that sprang up after World War II, emphasizing a fatalistic, despairing universe where there is no escape from mean city streets, lonliness, and death. Stylistically, noir emphasizes low-key and high-contrast lighting, complex compositions, and a strong atmosphere of dread and paranoia.


High Angle- A shot in which the subject is photographed from above. As opposed to a low angle shot.


Low Angle- A shot in which the subject is photographed from below. As opposed to a high angle shot.


Jump Cut- An abrupt transition between shots, sometimes deliberate, which is disorienting in terms of the continuity of space and time.


Long Shot- A shot that includes an area within the image that roughly corresponds to the audience's view of the area withing the proscenium arch in the live theatre. As opposed to a close-up.




Establishing shot -Typically it is a shot at the beginning (or, occasionally, end) of a scene indicating where, and sometimes when, the remainder of the scene takes place. Alternatively, an establishing shot might just be a long shot of a room that shows all the characters from a particular scene.


Aerial shots are usually done with a crane or with a camera attached to a special helicopter to view large landscapes. This sort of shot would be restricted to exterior locations. A good area to do this shot would be a scene that takes place on a building. If the aerial shot is of a character it can make them seem insignificant or vulnerable.

Bird's eye shot refers to a shot looking directly down on the subject. The perspective is very foreshortened, making the subject appear short and squat. This shot can be used to give an overall establishing shot of a scene, or to emphasise the smallness or insignificance of the subjects. These shots are normally used for battle scenes or establishing where the character is. It is shot by lifting the camera up by hands or by hanging it off something strong enough to support it. For a scene that needs a large area shot, then it will most often likely to be lifted up by a crane or some other sort of machine.

crane shot is a shot taken by a camera on a crane. The most obvious uses are to view the actors from above or to move up and away from them, a common way of ending a movie.

Two shot is a type of shot employed in the film industry in which the frame encompasses a view of two people (the subjects). The subjects do not have to be next to each other, and there are many common two-shots which have one subject in the foreground and the other subject in the background.

The shots are also used to show the emotional reactions between the subjects. For instance, in the movie Stand by me, this shot is used multiple times to show these emotions.

An 'American two shot' shows the two heads facing each other in profile to the camera.

Similarly, a three shot has three people in the composition of the frame. In these shots the characters are given more importance; this type of image can also be seen in print advertising.

Four shot scenes are relatively uncommon, but when seen regularly comprise four persons within frame.

Five shot scenes, whilst more common, rarely have 5 people in them and typically have either 6 or 3.5 (the extra 0.5 allowing for a balance of dramatic irony and mise-en-scene.

A point of view shot (also known as POV shot or a subjective camera) is a short film scene that shows what a character (the subject) is looking at (represented through the camera). It is usually established by being positioned between a shot of a character looking at something, and a shot showing the character's reaction (see shot reverse shot). The technique of POV is one of the foundations of film editing.

Loose Framing- Usually in longer shots. The mise en scene is so spaciously distributed withing the confines of the framed image that the people photographed have considerable freedom of movement.


Magic Hour- The hour of sunset, when the lighting is said to have a magical feeling which can be imparted to the film.


Mise en Scene- The arrangements of visual weights and movements within a given space. In the live theatre, the space is usually defined by the proscenium arch; in movies it is defined by the frame that encloses the images. Cinematic mise en scene encompasses both the staging of the action and the way it's photographed.


Montage- Transitional sequences of rapidly edited images, used to suggest the lapse of time or the passing of events. Often uses dissolve and multiple exposures. In Europe, montage means the art of editing.


Non-Diegetic Sound/ Commentary Sound - sound whose source is neither visible on the screen nor has been implied to be present in the action:
Non-diegetic sound is represented as coming from a source outside the story space. The distinction between diegetic or non-diegetic sound depends on our understanding of the conventions of film viewing and listening. We know that certain sounds are represented as coming from the story world, while others are represented as coming from outside the space of the story events.


Rack Focus/Selective Focusing- The blurring of focal planes in sequence, forcing the viewer's eye to travel with those areas of an image that remain in sharp focus.


Storyboard- A previsualization technique in which shots are sketched in advance and in sequence, like a comic strip, thus allowing the filmmaker to outline the mise en scene and construct the editing continuity before production begins.


Three-Point Lighting- A common technique of lighting a scene from three sources. The key light is the main source of illumination, usually creating the dominant contrast where we first look in a shot. Fill lights are less intence and are generally placed opposite the key, illuminating areas that would otherwise be obscured by shadow. Backlights are used to separate foreground elements from the setting, emphasizing depth in the image.


Tight Framing- Usually in close shots. The mise en scene is so carefully balanced and harmonized that the people photographed have little or no freedom of movement.

觉不觉的题目起的很后现代？？为什么？你想啊，跑题的意思是什么，就是偏离了文章的题目，也就是说跑题的意义是基于题目是存在的，那文章的题目是什么？跑题。
于是接下来我所说的一切也都变成了没有意义的。

可能继承了孔老夫子的中庸思想，说到性别歧视总觉得这词用的有点极端，不过在很多状况下，人与人之间信任感的建立确实有受到性别不同的影响......完了...我词穷了。
好吧好吧，我不善于琢磨这种谁多谁少谁强谁弱问题，至少在现在看来，姐还没有因为是个女的就要被迫面临更高的托福分数线或是更可观的学费...再者说了，这类问题本身就没有个结果，语言，一直都是是最无力最脆弱的表达方式。结果一不小心再给自己整成一女权主义者，我可不要...毕竟，现在为止，姐还是挺喜欢做女人的，就算是她们享受不到那么多的特权和尊重，就算是她们要跟脂肪和鱼尾纹战斗终生......

存在的就都是美的，承认吧，不管是有意识的还是没意识的，具象的还是抽象的，因为它们让世界变的充满想像力。你看吧，我们永远不知道自己下一个遇到的，会是多年未见的老朋友，还是千年等一回的白娘娘，抑或是即将要把你开膛破肚的变态杀人狂，最差最差，哪怕是个路人甲，也配的上之前的满心期待。你这么想啊，在无限无限无限的空间与无穷无穷无穷时间里，两个小小小小的灵魂相遇了，那要是多么宝贵的相遇啊，换个方式解释，如果一早就知道，今生与他只有这唯一的一次对视，相遇便是永别，那岂不应该好好珍惜一下这不起眼的路人甲吗。。。

于是，语言都是无意义的，最高阶的交流方式绝对跟语言没关系。
所以，当我不说话的时候，你或许更需要仔细听。

一起等车认识的一个小男孩，上周听他说要去考驾照，这周一直没有在车站看到，不意外，丫肯定是过了呗，真牛B～终于从无尽等待中解脱了，不象我还要老样子坐在树桩子上等我的公车，妈的。正低着头摆弄一张破纸，突然听见有人叫我的名字，抬头，就见他在面前了。

他说对不起啊对不起啊
我说啊？
他说这两天都没有来学校
我说没有啊，这有什么好对不起的，不用啊
他说第一天是因为跟朋友出去有事所以没有来，第二天是因为工作的面试所以没有来
我说啊那你面的怎么样
他说过了
我说太好了你真是双喜临头
他说还好啦，其实早就该有工作了 那你的电话是多少
我说4088813319，昨天的雨超大，太恐怖了
他说是啊学校的课都取消了，我拨了
我说恩，好，不过我没带电话
他说噢，因为之前讲如果考试过了就可以开车送你
我说是喔，哈哈太好了
他说对不起啊今天还是不会一起坐车因为要留在学校工作
我说啊那你直接呆在学校就好啊不用专门跑一趟吧
他说不行啊要来陪你说话啊不然你自己一个人很孤单很可怜
我说哪里有！？我在折纸玩一点也不无聊
他说哎车来咯
我说好！那拜拜吧
我上了车他就回去了

尽管我知道米国长大的小孩子都很单纯，不过天！丫如果不是喜欢我，那就是不小心摔在加州的天使。

可是......还是会不经意想起你呢，就算是有天使在身边，真是害人不浅。。。会在大街上跳舞的人，除了高中时候的我和大学时候的你，还会有吗？不过不过，我已经不需要有人这样做了，因为...长大了呗，把你当作是个教训，以后绝对不会轻轻松松的就让眼泪掉下来。

不愿意去想明天，不会期待下一秒会有什么奇迹发生，因为就算伸出手也什么都抓不到，于是单枪匹马去跟生活死磕，真的，酸酸的呢。
过去似乎一直挥之不去，让人没办法开始新生活，我想我应该要把一切归零。
恩，我会好好的，慢慢强大起来，然后遇到什么人我真的在乎也真的在乎我，对吧，我会好好的。

"丫是不是结婚了?"
"不是结婚，是订婚"
"......我就说嘛，真太烂了，问他他还遮遮掩掩的，msn头像那么大个戒指一看就知道啦，当我瞎啊？！不是男人，自作多情以为人人都喜欢他似的"

"><?#@}O)+_^&="''::+_)(*&^%$#@!~....?">><........."


"那知道他订婚你失落么？"
"没有啊，我替他高兴"
"真的吗？一点都没有吗？"
"因为我们是好朋友啊，当然是替他高兴"
"是喔......可是我有，可能我还不能当他是好朋友"
"......恩"
"一点点而已"
"其实我也有点儿，结婚了就不能象以前那么容易聚在一起了，还感觉结婚这种事情真的要开始摆到桌面上考虑了"
"......是喔，那这么说失落还是很正常的"
"正常"




可是到底。。。。。。好朋友订婚了该是什么感觉   那喜欢的人呢

我操！我该吃药了。。。朋友也好喜欢的人也好，都应该为他开心才是。这叫大爱。


好好的吧，烂人～～为了世界和平